Simpang Malaikat 44.

Semalam, aku mimpi. Aku jarang mimpi2 ni. My sleep has always been dreamless and pitch black; that or either I have no memory of what I dreamt the night before.

Mimpi ni sumpah aku tak mintak jadi! It is a frightening one; even thinking about it gives me goosebumps. Bangun2, aku terduduk punya lah lama. Kot2 aku ni salah mimpi ke. Kot2 betul ke.

Aku mimpi abang besar aku si Nasa meninggal!

Takut dowh. I love Nasa because you can never find another Nasa like him. You can never find his replacement. Aunthentic and pleasant, friendly and vibrant, honest and terrific...I want him to be just fine, and safe.

Are-Tain cakap itu menandakan Nasa tengah kenyang. Ape kes malam2 buta aku mimpi dia, dia dok tengah kenyang? Haha, Josh cakap tu tanda dia panjang umur. Ya ka?

Pakmat Nak Buat Pengumuman Agung!

Ingin aku ucap tengkiyu banyak2 dekat sahabatku Sexy (nama sebenar: Wan Nor Izzaty), kerana sepanjang karier beliau yang tak berapa panjang tu di kedai Nelson's (Tesco Taiping), beliau telah bertemu Nabilah! Yes, anak pakcik Omar Baki tu!

Aku ade number beliau! Jadi tunggu lah mesej aku dalam Facebook ye :) Terpulanglah nak hiraukan atau simpan nombor baru beliau :)

Dengar khabar nye beliau nak bertunang. Apekejadah?

Change Vol. 2

I used to care so much about how people would be affected by anything I do.

But then, people don't seem to care about whether I get affected or not. They just keep delivering these shit I don't think necessary at all.

So I tell myself, that why would I bother being nice to people who are not equally or even much nicer to me?

Something just came into my thought: People are like investments. If they give you great benefit, you keep them for long. If they don't, you might as well withdraw from them.

Where in the hell are you?

cik Nabilah anak pakcik Omar Baki

Hang kat mana? Aku SMS tak jawab. Aku pun tak tau la hang dah pi ceruk mana. Entah ada ke tak kat Taiping ni.

Eish, main ting-ting-hilang dengan aku naa...

Aku rindu hang gila-gila, hang tau dak? Eish, takdak teman merapu. Are-Tain ade atok. Aku?

NAB, aku cari jugak ko. Ko tunggu la.

Oh My Bee!

Not going to review Transformers 2: Revenge of The Fallen. I think a lot of bloggers have done the job, be it a good review or not. The best one yet is just to go and have a try and watch the movie. Anyway, I have to admit I enjoyed it so freaking much!

Spectacular cinematography and I totally dig the smooth movements of the robots.

Amazing gila! I have to go and watch it again!

I just want to say that I love Bumblebee! *does the annoying OMG rants*

HE IS HELL CUTE & ADORABLE. Such a pet! Are-Tain, aku nak curik Bumblebee daripada ekau! Mwahahahahahahar!


I so wanna date Bumblebee :))

Hot stuff weh.

Gee.

"I'm gonna wash that girl right outta my hair!"

- Gerard Arthur Way.

18 Days

9th June '08 - 26th June '08

"It's been 18 days,
Since I've had to look at myself,
I don't wanna have to change,
If I don't then, no one will,
Is it my state of mind?
Or is it just everything else?
I don't wanna have to be here,
I don't understand it now,

Cause it's been 18 days...
Since I first held you,
But to me it feels just like-
It feels like a lifetime,
I'm trying hard to re-arrange
Some say it's the hardest thing to do,
But that's another 18 days,
Without you.

Time after time,
I've been through this.
You show me what it means to live,
You give me hope when I was hopeless,
As my days fade to night,
I remember that state of mind,
I'm soaring straight into your heart,
And I'll fly high.

And I know what they say,
About all good things,
Will they come to an end?
But I'll fight this time,
So that we might,
Have a chance at this.


Cause it's been 18 days,
Since I'd look at myself,
I don't wanna have to change
If I don't then, no one will

Cause it's been too many days,
Since I first held you,
But to me it feels just like-
It feels like a lifetime .
I'm trying hard to re-arrange,
Some say it's the hardest thing to do,
But that's just too many days without you.

And I know what they say,
About all good things,
Will they come to an end?
But I'll fight this time.
So that we might,
Have a chance at this."

-18 Days, Saving Abel

R.I.P. Dixie

I just knew about this and I have to say it's rather a painful loss.

My Chemical Romance's drummer, Bob Bryar, is filing a lawsuit against the dog trainer whom he sent his German Shepard mix dog Dixie to for a week, only to receive her cremated remains back. Bob claimed the trainer changed the stories of his dog's death many times and the trainer as well clearly enough is at fault for cremating Dixie without his permission.

I mean, come on; why the hell would someone burnt something? Yes, to destroy evidence ;) Something bad must have happened to Dixie and the ones responsible didn't want Bob to know.

Three words, I have, for the dog trainer:
Bodoh punya orang.

R.I.P. Dixie

After one week.

I have never really been outside of home with friends, to date since I arrived in Taiping.

Haha, but I guess getting to communicate online is pretty acceptable. THANK GOD for social networking, and YouTube for that matter. Oh yeah, man! What would I do without Blogger too! I mean look at how many times I have been changing the pics up there. Shannimal rules right now, and that's a darn hot picture so I refuse to replace it.

I need to get out. Maybe catch Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen.

Anyone?

I miss you.

I do.

For all the passing seconds that held me and you.

For the moments of laughter we shared.

For all the cries we poured.

For all the effort we made, the obligations we faced.

For all the trust and the love we exchanged.

For all the pain we collectively embraced.

For the fruits of joy we collectively reaped.

I miss you...

...and I love you.


In dedication to the people that really matter to me. To that special someone, live your life and persevere. You know I do feel the same about you.

FUR: An Imaginary Portrait of Diane Arbus, Reviewed.

One word: Fantastic.

I love this movie, and hated it for the ending. Why the hell my favourite characters in literature flicks seem to have to be dead by the end of everything?!

(the real Diane Arbus)

I didn't know who the hell is Diane (pronounced as Dee-Ann) Arbus until I Wiki her name. She is one of the most influential American photographer known for her interest of taking disturbing, weird pictures. (Ring a bell? Me? I don't know, you tell me ;] ) Oh, and she's dead so she won't be criticizing this movie. I'll do the job.

The movie is about discovering yourself deep within. Not sure if the movie is true or just fictional even though Diane Arbus is a real person. Diane, in the movie, is a photography graduate but instead of doing her own photography projects, she's assisting her husband Allan. After all the effort of keeping her dissatisfaction of her life to herself, conforming to traditions and the many sleepless nights, she wanted to start her own project. Hubby gave green light!

Before...

After! You see, hairy men are sometimes hottie material!

She was so intrigued by her new neighbour Lionel Sweeney who actually looked like Chewbacca! Lionel had hypertrichosis (I spelled it right, right?); that super-hairy disorder thingy and was once in the Circus Freak shows. Oh, and he has this other problem that I don't know what it's called; his lungs shrink as he got older. Not to be mistaken with asthma, people.

Knowing Lionel brought out the true Diane Arbus; who's fascinated by special looking people that the societies at the moment deem ugly. Oh, and of course there is a love story. Movie cliches.

I won't tell how that someone mentioned died. It'll spoil the fun! Go figure. This movie is seriously awesome.

Ibu and parking.

Janji masuk! Haha.

Kata putus.

"Go UK first. Then you go USA."

...that was Mom's ultimatum after much healthy debates about which country has much better people.

Apparently, you can't mention USA to her. She doesn't like people from that side of the world.

Come on! It's USA! There are all kinds of people there, and so it is the best place to gain understanding of the human race ;)

Life will be hard, I know. But well, I'll take the risk. I want to challenge myself and see how much I can endure.

Heating up in home

TAIPING PANAS LAH!

My goodness. Apa sudah jadi?

What an ambition.

My life's most impossible dream:
Work with a touring crew; preferably the Riot Squad.

I know! I know! To an extent it sounded ridiculous. But I really wish I can do it. For a year or half is enough!

"How do I get an internship at riot squad?"

"E-mail us at internships@riotsquad.com telling us a little about yourself, what you'd like to do, and when you are available to work. You must be in college and be eligible to receive credit for your internship. The internship is unpaid and is located in Los Angeles, California. We are looking for motivated, hard working people who are passionate about music and want to work in the music industry."

- Copied & pasted from Riot Squad's Official Website

Unpaid, but still, it's a money-can't-buy life experience you won't get everyday.

In the wisdom words of Alicia Simmons (guitar tech for World's Most Hated Crew);

"It's probably the hardest thing any human can go through. It's the most grueling thing ever. Everyday seems like the worst one yet. I don't really recommend it to many people. Sure it's all fine and dandy you get to hang out with so many bands in the parking lot at the end of the night, and some of those people will be people you REALLY look up to and can't even believe you have the opportunity to MEET them, but honestly, you are more concerned about being in your bus in the air conditioning or taking a shower than giving two shits about who's hanging out where and on what bus. Trust me, it's not all fun and games at all. Being a girl out there is even much harder. You gotta be tough, a lot of dudes and chicks are lonely on that tour, and are all about summer lovin' and 90% of girls on the tour end up seeing someone by the end. It's a LONG 3 months to spend alone. But I'll tell you straight up; if you stay to yourself the whole tour and just befriend everyone and not hook up with anyone, at the end of the tour everyone and their moms want to be your best friend and you'll get 385734085 job offers. Think of it as the ultimate test. It's tough, and a lot of days you need a shoulder to cry on. Yes, CRY. But if you ever end up on tour, stay strong and it pays off. It pays off to stay tough, learn how to move on and put things behind you, how to prepare for worst case scenarios, how to be one of the guys, how to respect peoples space and belongings, how to pack a suitcase better than anyone else in the entire world, and how to handle a lot of real life situations outside of touring and amazing people's skills in general. It's kinda like survival skills 101, but all bunched into a VERY small chunk of time. You learn fast; you have to. It's not all as glamorous as it all may look. It's still a REAL JOB and it's hard, especially when it feels like everything is going the right direction, something can happen to knock you back down to square one. Stick to it, BE STUBBORN, it pays off. Trust me."

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Far-fetched much? Haha. It is an aspiration yet to be conquered ;) Wish me luck, or at least wish that I'll get enough money to support me through out the entire journey :P

17 Again

NOTE:
Whoever says Zac Efron is the next Jared Leto is apparently blind.

Anyway, the movie is enjoyable. Haha, Zac Efron's acting is pretty good. I still think he has to break away from all those high school shit, famous kid in school, basketball team bla bla bla.

Do something like Daniel Radcliffe! He went threadless for Equus! I wasn't saying that Zac should go nayyy-kedd. Do something that is not High School Musical. If you want to stay relevant in Hollywood, you have to colour you resume.

I think this movie is really good in terms that it shows how important a father's role in the children's lives and how Dads can stop putting the blame on their family on anything that goes wrong.

What a very coincidental movie.

Famous quote of the movie: "Hey, Mom. This is Mark. Uncle Ned's bastard."

Boohoo!

Too many fun things to do!

Too little time...

:(

Somebody's been reading so avidly at this hour.
I find that amazing, really.
This one isn't much of a reader, but when it takes an initial step, it ain't stopping ;]

Bagus, bagus. Keep going, Mok!

Think Happy Thoughts: Updated [ 1 ]

I have updated the blog.

The new continuing fiction has made its debut.

The fiction is entitled 'To The End From Yesterday', and it is a slash fiction. Slash as in it is My Chemical Romance and 30 Seconds to Mars combined.

Thank you :]

My Way Home Is Through You

This song reminds me of death.

Always.

It gets to me better than the song "Bila Izrail Datang Memanggil". I think I realize the truth behind the veil of the song words after listening to it a lot since my Grandpa passed away.

I like to think that the song serves a purpose; that the world is drawing to an end. What are we doing to go 'home'? Are we ready for 'home'?

Gonna take off all my skin,
Tear apart all of my insides
When they rifle in,
Mom and Dad think you'll be saved
They never had the time
They're gonna medicate your lives
You were always born a crime
We salute you in your grave

Can't find my way home
But it's through you and I know
What I'll do
Just to get back in your arms

(My rifle fires seven different shades of shit.
So what's your favorite color, punk?)

Do you wanna hold my hand?
Could you sign this photograph?
'Cause I'm your biggest fan
Would you leave me lying here?

We're not here to pay a compliment
And sing about the government
Oxycontin genocide
Adolescent suicide
Give him my sincerity
Don't give a fuck about a Kennedy
Here's what I got to say:

Can't find my way home
But it's through you and I know
What I'll do
Just to get back in your arms

- My Chemical Romance

Monsters & Montana

Two movies back-to-back!

Hannah Montana and Monsters Vs. Aliens.

Verdict: Satisfactory!

Hannah Montana
Surprisingly, the movie is very entertaining. I wish I had a Dad like Papa Cyrus. He's one awesome dad! Miley Cyrus was great through out the movie. Teaches you to be whoever you want to be but stay strong to your roots ;)

Monsters Vs. Aliens
Great laugh all the way! It was hilarious! I could have jumped out of my seat laughing at the witty dialogues! Must-watch!

Nanantok. (Sleepy)

I did not sleep the night before. Coffee helps but not as strong as always.

Looking at the notes, my eyeballs roll...my eyes are slowly shutting.

Goal: Go back hostel after exam and sleep. Fuck la whatever is next.