I feel like updating.

But don't have time to update.

Therefore I'm announcing updates shall be made when I have done with some stuff.

Grrr.

A stain that never comes off.

And never again they gave us two shots to the back of the head.
And we're all dead now.

And we'll love again,
We'll laugh again,
We'll fly again,
and we'll dance again.

...And it's better off this way.
So much better of this way.

*I Never Told You What I Do For A Living, My Chemical Romance.

Maaf Zahir & Batin

...is so over-rated.

Really. Can you really tell if it's sincere?

It seems like a trend to me; something to be said to complement Hari Raya wishes with zero actualization and sincerity.

And some people think they can get away with what they do then, on Hari Raya. I really don't get it.

Tak paham how apologies are now commercialized.

It should be done truthfully, face-to-face, with manners and realization of one's mistake. It is not something like hit and run.

Where is the sanctity?

Peluang

Sebanyak manakah peluang yang boleh diberi?

Dulu, aku dah beri peluang. Keadaan masih sama. Tak berubah. Makin kritikal.

Sebut saja: pengkhianatan, penipuan, dibelakangkan, dicerca dari belakang...; semua itu aku dah rasa. Tak payah lama. Dua tahun pun sudah mencukupi untuk aku rasa semua ni.

Dulu aku boleh beralah, buat bodoh; kononnya menerima sikap sahabat-sahabat sebegini. Tapi lama-lama, tipis sabar aku.

Nak peluang lagi? Entah la, dah tawar hati sangat-sangat. Dah mintak maaf? Pakai apa? SMS? Surat yang dihantar melalui orang lain?

Hatta nak bercerai pun kena depan-depan. Lagi la nak mintak maaf.

Tapi pokoknya bukan maaf yang ditagih. Cuma hati aku dah tak ada ruang untuk kawan-kawan macam ni. Cukup lah; puas aku bodohkan diri, menjaga hati, mencuba untuk merasa situasi ni menurut perspektif mereka. Mereka macam tu juga.

Sebanyak manakah peluang yang boleh diberi?

Sebanyak mana sekeping hati boleh menelan dan menafikan apa yang mereka buat?

Meatless Hands.

THIS is something I have yet to purchase. I DIG THIS THING SO MUCH!

Best Model Ever to don the gloves, who else if not Mr. Iero.

I think I should start looking for them again.

Lesson

"Never, ever, take anyone you love for granted."

Trust me; when you lose them, there is no rewind.

This is by far the only thing I regret: Not being able to purely appreciate this old man; my late grandfather.