Fragile: Handle with Care

When I am typing this down, I am in Mr. Bong's class. I don't think I will be presenting, unless circumstances are forcing me to.

Literally, earlier, I was blown away by Bupe's presentation. What she said was so true. So true I could definitely relate to it.

Yeah, we are all imperfect in different ways. For instance, I am too transparent, too straightforward, too stubborn, too sarcastic and slightly emotional. Other people are probably the same or anything else, or otherwise everyone would be too perfect to be human.

Bupe mentioned about the history of Adolf Hitler and the Jews, and what actually drives people to take their own lives away; in other words commit suicide la. It is because people did not care, or maybe they never will. I was suicidal twice. Twice, man. Other people could have felt suicidal too many times. Twice is enough to push me to the very edge of death itself.

Why? The first one was because I was pressured so much by my family. The second one was a friend's betrayal.

Call me stupid or anything but seriously, those who are suicidal WERE stupid when they feel like it. Only during those times. But those who ARE stupid all along are people around these fragile souls who refuse to do anything.

They are ignorant as a sheet of paper. They claim that they are never approached. They claim that it is never their business. When they were sad, and 'don't have anyone else to talk to', then only they will look for who they favour. Not those who would be willing to listen.

I used to have a friend. Damn, I loved her too much. I was so aware about her feelings and tried my best to not do anything to hurt her. I trusted her, and never had any bad assumptions about her. Until one day she turned her back on me. And she still does.

I sat next to her for a class and there is never a simple 'How are you?'. The funny thing is, my boyfriend will get SMS-es from her and she will ask about how is he doing, and even funnier asking him if I WAS SICK. Like duh, where was I all along? Planet Mars?

Funny, no? How some people prefer to approach the hidden and ignore the apparent. Like how humans engage themselves with unseen forces instead of praying to God.

Clearly, who is much, much more pathetic? For how long will people be careless? Couldn't be bothered? Cowards? Mute?

I don't know about you guys but I definitely care about people I love, and I will care even more.

This has made my day, today.

"People ask me to, uh, autograph asthma inhalers; I'm not actually asthmatic but, uh, I'll sign 'em. (laughs) You bring 'em."

-Mikey Way

Ten cent.

No, not going to talk about coins whatsoever.

TEN CENT = TENSEN = TENSION

Ada paham?

Good. Now what have fallen upon me recently? Oh, plenty!

1. Failures to respond positively towards my morning alarms, resulting to I'm begging my housemates to pull me away from my bed if I fail to do so.
2. Invisible nuisance. It's getting on my nerves. Especially text messages with endearments 'syg' from whatshername to my significant other and he doesn't even know how they got in there. EW. C****A S**L; and now it's playing 'seeing double'. @#!%&*^%$# JAGA KAU. Ditapis untuk tontonan golongan bawah umur.
3. Abundance of work.
4. ECZEMA. Dah tak lawa kaki den. Burok. Haha, not to mention medications that make me sleepy.
5. Shannon's first monthasarry. Makan Old Town je, tapi Mommy yang makan. DSLR mana boleh makan. Tengok je tau, anakku. Mommy ♥ s you.
   
6. The All-American Rejects. Go or no go?
7. Zuan and the girls begging me to go see Beyonce. I say, 'No, no, no...'

Tomorrow I have PR COMM exam. Alamaaaaaaak. PR WRITING was easy though, no thanks to the ubat, I slept during exam for 10 minutes even though caffeine was in my veins.

Alright. I have errands to do. Shall narrate more later. :)

Forgive Mommy for the retarded face. :P