Puan Noorul Huda.

I hope every one of your students, and those whom you have taught before, is praying for your survival. May Allah S.W.T. be with you throughout the entire operation you are undertaking, and may your family stay strong and be patient.

Her brain is dead, and she is in an extremely critical condition.

I pray you will survive because I am sure, there are many people who need you by their side and in their lives.

Thank you to those who have notified me about her, including Puan Noorul Huda's daughter who is also my schoolmate; Noor Hanisah.

Amin...

Ayah...

Kakak minta maaf kalau Ayah rasa kami tak sayang Ayah. Bukan macam tu. Ayah tetap Ayah kami, dunia akhirat. Tetapi Ayah tak boleh nafikan apa yang jadi dulu.

Kami memang anak-anak Ayah; tapi kami pun manusia, Ayah. Kami ada hati, ada perasaan, ada akal, ada batas kesabaran. Ayah pun begitu. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah saja yang tahu apa yang terdetik di hati Ayah bila anak-anak Ayah kurang berminat untuk bertemu Ayah.

Pada Ayah, ini disebabkan pengaruh Ibu. Tetapi bukan begitu. Tidak boleh lagi kami atau sesiapa pun manusia biasa di dunia ini yang patut menyangkal darjat Ibu. Ibu itu paling utama.

Pernahkah Ayah bertanya pada diri jika reaksi kami ini adalah disebabkan tindakan Ayah dulu? Ketika ego Ayah tebal? Ketika tiada apa yang mampu lagi untuk menghalang Ayah melakukan
apa yang telah Ayah laksanakan?

Sanggupkah Ayah mengaku itu silap Ayah? Atau Ayah akan terus menuding jari pada orang lain? Masih tebalkah ego Ayah? Sekelumit pun ia tidak pernah terhakis dengan apa yang terjadi?

Kami tidak benci. Kami tidak dendam. Cuma sukar bagi kami untuk melihat Ayah sepertimana Ayah yang dahulu kami kenal. Sukar.

InsyaAllah. Kakak berdoa suatu hari nanti Ayah akan faham isi hati kami, dan mungkin Ayah akan berubah.

My Random Twenty

Well, this is supposed to be a tag but well, I grabbed it from Lei's Facebook notes since I am obviously bored. Teehee~

1. I love to eat actually. Those who really know me know how much I eat but it's just that I don't get fat easily.

2. I think my college is somewhat so-so but never mind; I came prepared.

3. Please don't ask me to eat if I'm angry or sad or upset. I just can't swallow any food at that moment.

4. I am a potential stalker.

5. I love snakes, cats, and a whole lot of animals actually.

6. I have been neglecting my MySpace(s) XD

7. I am weird in a sense I can continue the already paused conversation about anything.

8. I may demand some space for myself but in a way, I don't want to be isolated.

9. The only sports that I did well during school was 'lompat tinggi'. I'M NOT KIDDING! But I avoided in participating for Sports Day.

10. I hate it when people take me for granted and back stab when I'm so nice to them.

11. When I'm depressed, I can cry like a banshee and get way too negative about myself.

12. I love my family and friends a lot.

13. If I get so depressed, I may experience the risk forgetting certain events that has happened or things.

14. I am very used to not getting anything on my special days because I am the eldest one.

15. I want to do bungee jumping, reverse bungee, sky-diving etc before I die.

16. Trust is something I used to give away so freely back then. Now it's way too expensive.

17. Most guys that I have crushes on in real life are jerks.

18.If I offer to help you with anything, please do not ask me what you can give me in return.

19. When I love anyone, I really do. But sometimes, not all of them love me anyway.

20. When people complain about me, I don't blame them. I will look back at myself and see what's really missing. It's hard when one thing's fixed, these people come up to point out my new mistakes.

Kids should just be kids

Kids should just...have fun. Have it all while they can.

They should not worry about things like body shape, or how much fat they consume, or how chubby their cheeks are, or even how they look like.

Those should NEVER be a child's concern.

Childhood is all about enjoying the innocence, the fun, the exploration. Children themselves should always be celebrated, encouraged, supported, loved and cared. They don't need elder ones to ridicule them, or to drop their self-esteem. Childhood is a stage that can possibly shape children; an slight peek of what kind of person they will be in the future.

I have had my childhood stage. It wasn't a very happy one. I was a slow learner. I had very low self esteem. I was quite. I asked for what I want but I got used to these requests getting turned down. I was easily exploited, and manipulated. What I said were usually not listened to. I didn't get answers for most of my questions. I lied and got punished. I was a subject of complaints for many teachers. Not many noticed any of my capabilities. Sometimes, just because kids are kids, they get ridiculed.

However, it is important to help troubled kids to bounce back. I managed to do so on my own and I'm glad, am grateful, and am proud that I did not go to waste with so much negativity in my childhood.

It is time for older people like us to start realizing that children don't need to be treated like adults. Kids should just be kids.

Doing what I do best during semester breaks...

Gearing up to be even geekier than ever. I pretty much own the PC during semester break, even more so if school break for the kids (and school teachers) is over.

I have no better companion than the internet. That is why I love to learn about what it has to offer.

Some of them are bad things, some of them are good ones. It is important to learn both, actually. To learn bad things like hacking and creating viruses is actually a chance for you to understand the internet better and to practice better ways of using the internet so you can shield your virtual life from being exploited.

I love the internet, without further doubts. LOL.

p/s: That's not my laptop either. Hehe~ It's Khalisa's. The cigarette is Zuan's. Menthol Sempoerna (did I spell it right?) and that blue paper is a collage of baby pictures of Khalisa and her superhot brother, Danial Rashid. Hehe~ Ini semua sekadar gambar hiasan.

I AM BORED, lah.

►Perfect:

No one is.

►Tall:

- I have no idea but not exceeding 150cm I guess.

►In your pajamas:

-Yes.

►Lefthanded:

- No.

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LAST :

►Friend you saw:

- Josephine Sin. At Tesco. She was on break from her shift.

►Talked to on the phone:

- Erm, Josh.

►Is today better than yesterday:

- It's practically the same but I'm hoping to see the dentist tomorrow.

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FAVORITE S :

►Number:

- Not revealing. LOL.

►Colors:

- black, red, white and blue.

►Food :

- I have a variety to list down.

►Place:

- A safe spot in my head.

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QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:

Q: What was the first thing you did

this morning when you got up?

- Manage my two sisters who goes to school every weekday evenings.

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?

- Yes. The itch to do better for next semester.

Q: Where is the last place you went?

-kedai jual pisang goreng. :/

Q. Do you smile a lot?

- It depends.

Q: Do you wish upon stars?

- Nope. Atas sejadah je...

Q: Are you a friendly person?

- Kind of.

Q: Where did you sleep last night?

- At home lah.

Q: Why did you sleep there?

- Then, where? Legend Inn Taiping?

Q: When was the last time you cried?

- Yesterday.

Q: What was your last thought before this day?

- I wish I'll recover from my headache and get to see the dentist tomorrow.

Q: What do you hear right now?

-Ian Watkins screaming in my headphones to the song Everyday Combat.

Q: Does anything hurt you right now?

- Yes, my farking headache.

Q: What's your favorite month?

- I don't really have any.

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EMOTION S :

Are you missing someone right now?

- I do miss a few memorable people.

Are you tired?

- Yes, thanks to my headache.

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BASICS:

►Real name?

- That's for me to know and for you to wonder.

►Age?

- Soon-to-be 20.

►Eye color?

- The darkest shade of brown.

►Zodiac sign?

- The Virgin.

►Male or female?

-Erm, I think that is pretty obvious that I am a female.

►Smart?

- In certain things. There are many things yet to be discovered in life to call oneself smart.

►Hair color?

- Jet black.

►Sweats or Jeans?

- Jeans.

►Phone or Camera?

- Camera.

►Health freak?

- At times I'm a little bit of both.

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FIRSTS :

►First best friend?

- I don't remember her name.

►First award?

- I don't remember.

►First enemy?

- This Pakistani girl named Sabrina back in Nansen Primary School, Birmingham.

►First pet?

- Ayam serama jantan yang sangat handsome, named Kuning.

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CURRENTLY :

► Eating?

- No.

►Drinking?

- No.

►Listening to?

- Almost by Bowling for Soup.

►Plans for tomorrow?

- Managing my sisters?

►Waiting for?

- Next semester.

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WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE

GENDER:

►Lips or eyes ?

- Eyes. This is subjective, actually.

►Shorter or taller?

- I love tall men with sexxxaaayyy legs.

►Romantic or spontaneous?

- I don't mind either, but no room for jiwang karat.

►Sensitive or loud?

- A bit of both is good, actually.

►Hook-up or in a relationship?

- Well, I don't quite understand this part.

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HAVE YOU EVER

►Drank bubbles?

- This is one silly thing to do, people.

►Lost glasses/contacts?

- No. I've damaged a number of my old pair of glasses.

►Ran away from home?

- Not really.

►Broken someone's heart?

- Yes.

►Been arrested?

- No.

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ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

►Do you like someone?

- I like a lot of people.

►Are you seriously happy with your life?

- I'm thankful for what I have and yeah, but things were better.

Braces.

Yes, I want to go and get my lower teeth structured properly. Well, at first it didn't look like a huge concern until I noticed a few stains at the back of my lower teeth that cannot be removed by brushing or even using Listerine. I couldn't even remove them with my nails (bad habit, I know).

My brother suggested going to the dentist and getting it cleaned but I was thinking how many times will I go to the dentist just to get these stains cleaned from time to time? I might as well go and get my lower teeth braced and do not have to face this problem in the future.

Painful? Pedulik la. Sakit sekarang, happy2 kemudian ler..

Happy 22nd Birthday, Cuppycake!!!

Happy 22nd Birthday, Khalisa!!!

Wishing you a wonderful year ahead, dirahmatiNya and murah rezeki!
I love you to bits and thank you for being there for me! I know you're having a blast as I'm typing this but take care, Cuppycake. Stay lovely, sayang! Can't wait to see you next semester ^_^

LOL. Web Tech brought us closer :D

Holiday's over

It's over for school kiddos, but well it seems kind of over for me as well. Yeah, I know I'm in college but because the majority of the people in my house are still going to school, including my mother, I don't get a feeling of going anywhere.

Back to school!

That's my littlest sister. She is all raring for school. Went to register her for Standard One. It was a very boring event, to be honest. I have no idea when I fell asleep halfway during the headmistress's speech. Everyone was dead boring!

Thank goodness it wasn't so long. I believe my sister got bored too.

:P

"TV rosak ke?"

ROFLMAO


On new year's eve, my littlest sister Ummi just couldn't figure out why all the TV channels were viewing the Prime Minister's speech! The funny thing is that she asked my mother if there is anything wrong with the TV.

Happy New Year 2009

A new year it is and frankly, I don't feel anything good or bad. My feeling is quite neutral. I still live my days the way it is. All I am waiting is the day I will be officially an adult; that would be another 2 years in time.

New year's resolution? I never had one and maybe never will. I don't really think it is that crucial. To me, by the end of the day, all that matters is the journey. Not necessarily the goals you set. If you achieved them, that's a great job. If you don't, then it is possible for many reasons why it is so. I don't think it is working for me anyway, or perhaps I don't really have anything to chase other than completing my life throughout the whole year beneficially.

I think in this new year I am just hoping to grow wiser, better, and that I'll be happier. I will be fully ready to accept what will happen and face it. Trust is something I have finally learned not to be given so freely. I am also ready to gain and lose anything.


Nothing is permanent.


Happy New Year 2009, peeps. Have a blastin' year.