Fever

Musim demam. Kalau musim buah tu best la jugak. Ni musim demam. LOL.

Tiqa demam. Cranky habis makcik tu. Tambah pulak pancaindera dia tak berjalan dengan lancar. LOL.

Nasa pun demam. Gedik gila la kalau dia demam. Merengek macam budak kecik. Tergolek sana, tergolek sini. Penampar sebijik baru tau. Mengadu kat aku macam aku boleh je bagi ubat free kat dia. LOL tapi kesian jugak kat dia.

Josh pun demam. Sengal sendi tangan. Takut denggi, dia cakap. LOL. Celah mana dia nampak bintik merah tu pun tak tau la. Makan pun tak betul. Sikit-sikit muntah. Kesian...

Aku dah demam lama dah. LOL. Demam flu je. Dah baik dah pun. Tu pun Josh bagi jangkit tu. Adui.

Terasa

Entah. Malam ni banyak pulak aku terasa. Macam-macam lah.

Aku dah sampai tahap tak tau lah nak buat apa lagi.

Benda kecik ada. Benda besar ada.

Mula2 cakap terasa dipulaukan dengan aku. Dah aku nak patch it up, aku pulak rasa dipulaukan.

Lepas baca blog Are-Tain, aku rasa Alhamdulillah lah aku tak sampai tahap macam tu nak menyebut nama. Aku rasa takde hak nak buat macam tu.

Aku tak reti la nak jadi jahat gila babi. Aku tak sampai hati.

Hairan jugak bila ada yang cakap aku keras hati. Keras tang mana tu? Ego siapa paling top pun aku tak tau. Seego-ego aku, aku buat jugak muka tak malu tanya betul ke dia terasa. Dia buat tak tau macam aku ni cakap Tamil pulak.

Entah. Pening aku.

*yawns*

I just woke up. Whoa, look at the time! Gila ah... I wonder if Zuan is back yet from clubbing.

I can say he was actually so desperate to go clubbing. Me & Eqa sat together, Facebook-ing till wee hours like nobody's business.

Oh, and the fact that he SMS-ed the number plat of the car that picked him up from hostel yesterday was surprising. Tak sedap hati kot?

LOL, at least it would be something I can use if I have to make a police report and said Zuan has gone missing since he went out for clubbing.

Thought of the minute: What to eat eh? I fear to go to the management and pick up my parcel because I haven't paid the hostel rent yet and I DO NOT WANT THEM TO CONFISCATE MY PHONE OR MY LAPTOP. No farking way!

Apekejadah

Wajar ke buat sebegitu hatta sekadar memenuhi permintaan yang agak biasa?

Jawapannya agak luar biasa. Terkejut jugak aku dibuatnya. Bukan main gah lagi beraksi.

Tak faham aku. Dunia tengah jadi makin pelik untuk dirungkai.

Manusia, manusia. Macam-macam ada.

Earth Hour. Konon.

DESTINATION: CAPSQUARE, KL.

TIME: EVENING TILL LATE.

ENTHUSIASTS: KHALISA, ZUAN, NASA, BLOODYHONEY28, JOSH & EQA.

OUTCOME: NOTHING.


Everything just went bananas. Nasa didn't get his car. Zuan was in Damansara. Khalisa was busy with another event. Josh, Eqa and I were about to go until Zuan said he's not going.

But hey, still; Imagine if everything just went black. How uncivilised suddenly things would be. Not necessarily things lah. People. Kot. Kot lah.

It's gonna take a huge effort to actually make it work.

Damn.

"Have you guys heard?" Zuan asked Nasa and I as he got into the car.

"Ape?" Nasa turned behind.

"Konsert tu cancelled."

"BABI!" I exclaimed.

"Wahtderfark! Apesal cancelled?" Nasa asked.

"IDK. Ezziq just told me," Zuan replied.

DAMN. Kiranya aku tahu...sudah aku tidur di rumah. jatuh saham betul la konsert tu. Memang susah la sikit ko nak dapat derma disebabkan kidney failure ko tu, Encik Kitso oii...

It's time.

For a breakaway.

Maybe it is the best thing to do right now.

I'm sorry but I never meant to hurt anyone. You can keep your dirty little secrets because I have no interest already to dig them. Keep all the sneaking out to yourself. I don't think the explanation is relevance after discovery.

It's amazing to see how something great turned out to be pretty ugly.

Saya penat.

Sangat-sangat penat dengan manusia punya perangai.

"Dapatkan hidup", manusia-manusia sekalian.

Dengan seriusnya.

p/s: Apa jenis BM la aku pakai ni? Wakakakaka.

Change

It's pretty baffling that when you have changed, people suddenly think there shouldn't be any change. When things were not up to their expectations, they demanded for change.

I have changed, yet again; in certain aspects. People called me childish, controlling, lazy, arrogant, spoilt, etc when they don't actually put themselves in my shoes, when they don't go through what I have gone through. However, I changed. I want to make people happy.

Still, people give me double-standard treatments.

It makes me wonder, if there is still anything wrong with me.

I'm not mad or angry. I'm just sad. Sad because I have so much faith in people, yet people don't even care.

Perhaps lying has become a part of them.

"We must be the change we want to see."
- Mahatma Gandhi.

I wish you were right, Gandhi, because it doesn't seem to be so for me now.

Reversified.

My prayers have been answered. (epiphany, pfft! LOL)

The old, macho me is back! Yay!

Finally, I am immune to crying. I have finally managed to discuss things better.

Thank you, you three; and any one else indirectly involved.

Live in the now is what I am going to do. Some things are better left alone.

After 2 weeks in campus...

Everything is pretty much okay. It's been a while since I last blogged. Sorry for that, if I ever kept anyone of you waiting for new entries. I have no idea when the hell am I going to get myself that freakin' Maxis Broadband. Thank goodness I won't be paying for it alone.

To start with, I am taking 6 subjects this semester:

• Fundamentals of Organizational Behaviour
• Principles of Business Law
• Writing for Mass Media
• Public Relations Principles
• Communication In The New Economy

Just struggling to finish pronouncing one subject takes 3 seconds. Let alone spending 2 hours or more with the subject itself.

I enjoyed Public Relations Principles, thanks to Ms. Vaneetha. She made it fun for me, well; I think she's fun! I never slept in her class or get annoyed.

Yes, I do get annoyed in one particular class and I'm not naming the subject. The lecturer is terrible. Wahtderfark is wrong with her?! I wish Fuad was in the class to keep on debating with her about the relevance of her examples and explanations. I simple cannot, because she's so k*****. ( please do not mind me for my vulgarity)

I think she doesn't like me and Tiqa because we give weird looks when she explains something that we know is not making any sense at all.

She ruins the subject and my Mondays. Damn.

Oh, and I've figured out what to do with my hair. CRASHministerofpropaganda, thanks for the indirect inspiration ^_^